These last seven days have been a little stressful to say the least. I have been sad, anxious, mad, and thankful many times this week. Noah was diagnosed seven days ago with Aspergers Syndrome. James and I have known for a while that there has been something different about Noah, other that ADD. It was hard to hear and see honestly! I have had a flood of thoughts and feelings go through my head this week. What do we do now, what will he need when he grows up, what does he need now, what books should I read, who should I tell and what are they going to say, are just a few. I have also prayed a lot this week and have truly felt the peace of God. I am reminded that James and I talked before we had kids about one day adopting a special needs child. It was something we both felt that God was calling us to do. I now know God was preparing us to have a special needs child of our own. Will we still adopt one day? I know God will lead us and we will know what is right for our family. God also reminded me that nothing has changed. Noah is still my precious, kind hearted, smart, little boy I've always known and loved. My heart still jumps when he asks for a hug (maybe just a little higher) and I love to hear him say I love you mommy! Noah is still Noah!! Would I want him to not have Aspergers? No parent likes to know that there are struggles and obstacles ahead, more so than normal, for their child. Aspergers is a part of what makes Noah, Noah! So to imagine Noah without Aspergers would mean that he would have to change. I love my Noah just the way he is! I can honestly say I wouldn't change a thing! I prayed for Noah a long time ago. God has chosen us special to be Noah's family. What an amazing gift!!!
Maria,
ReplyDeleteA good friend of ours has a daughter with Aspergers. She is an amazing young woman, now 20 and attending Kennesaw State University. She is a talented artist, and a genius in Mathematics. She and Noah are a blessing and I know that God has wonderful plans for both of them! God Bless you and your family!
~Emily
Hey Maria....
ReplyDeleteI just followed your link from Facebook to here to read about what is going on with Noah. My heart goes out to you. I know it is not the same thing, but I do know sad it can be to feel that your child is not "normal." I have become very sensitive to that through my Abby's speech difficulties. As a parent, you do just long for them to be what the world sees as "normal."
When I think of Noah, I remember how sweet and thoughtful he was at dance to Abby. There were several times he would offer her a toy to play with and say Hello. I think he is such a sweet boy. :) I think he is perfectly him. :)
On a different note, I have a blog of my own, and I love keeping up with others that blog. I hope you do not mind if I add you to my list of blogs to read up on. :)
Meredith